hi! this is the first time making it home before 8pm after band. on the other hand, i was later for sch. second time in this month. one more time and i gotta do cwo. sigh.

this is entry is for all those who have been directly and indirectly lifting my spirits, making me laugh, letting me forget all my worries. namely, heracles, ohnineohfive, the ppl online. also wanxin, and gayle, for taking time to talk to me and asking how i am. although nobody noes this, so many family problems are troubling me. stepping home is like entering another world of woes. i'm esp worried for mom..i'm so afraid she wld do sthing silly, like suicide or sthing. this somewhat reminds of the time in sec4 when i wld be so afraid thar mom or dad wld go crazy and kill the other with a knife or sthing. i went so paranoid i even told my mom i wld break down and not take o's. its not that i'm imaginative; these things have happened before. thankfully we're not staying together now.

now, things are goin even more downhill i'm willing to accept my parents' divorce, i don't care happen, just so as long it has nth to do with death, for mom's sake. let's just say i totally hate my father though i can't bring myself to. but what he has done is too much. isn't it sad i have to hate the first guy i see in my life? the first guy to carry me in his arms? argh...i'm lost for words already.

haha..before anyone thinks i'm turning morbid, i wanna thank once again, the ppl i've listed above. and to ans wanxin's ques, no..i have no mood to look for another bf wadsoever. no mood. though its nice to have someone closer than a friend to share ur burden, i don't wanna trouble anyone. maybe i might consider after this mess is cleared up. sometimes i'm so noisy but sometimes i simply don't talk. hopefully that doesn't scare u..haha. no, i don't have a split personality.

ok...that's all i gonna say tonite. bye~