hiz...full of mixed feelings now.
today band started at 9..we played manhunt and disappear. boy, was zuoyang hard to find! every grp was like stuck all becos of him and u noe wad? he was hiding in te broom cupboard at the 1 floor next to toilet. wad the.. disappear. i wasn't caught this time round hee...first went all the way to the canteen, den hall den court near the hostel..no sec4s..so sian argh. went to canteen again. this time saw kaijun...thought he looke harmless enuff..boy was i wrong. he summoned this whole troop of sec4s..haha den i ran lor wad to do? den ran all the way to the foyer saw xueting. den she chased after me i stopped. cos i too tired to run den had to follow her back to take cover. budden i ran off while she wasn't lookin. so left there stranded..ran around summore..dunno somehow or another bumped into xueting again ran all the way to second level..saw eesuan they all, xinyi, eileen budden think they heck care...den went to guides area...they were having some trainin den me hid behind for sometime den after that went to the place where the logs were kept. there..hid bout 20 mins. went out cos cannot tahan anymore. den so sway..sec4s came. we ran into girl's toilet. den after awhile to check, drink water den hid ni staff toilet. den..den..went 2nd level nobody there. after that time to go back..

mr ng told us bout the syf results..den lunch had kfc! mrs wong's treat. after that went hall..some announcements, give out certs, basses played some piece. den takeover ceremony..hmm some quite surprising results really..haha~ kahmun....sec 1 squad leader? haha..den she keep whinin and whinin buay tahan. i pity the sec1s really..me is taskforce i/c well? no big deal..sorta expected it? budden again, this time temp takeover only everyone also have a post..haha luckily i still got huimin cos i'm sure nobody can hear me if i ask them to do qing jie gong zuo..lol~

after that...cleaning instrus..den fall out. haix really sad lor..many became teary..me included..dunno y also. i've never really been that close to my seniors..partly cos i dunno what's there to talk bout or cos i just dont like to open my mouth. anyway, just became teary lor..for thousand and one reasons. gave susie jie her present [ yeap. she's my jie now :)] den hugged her twice..once not so sad..2nd time i was like verge of tears. haix. at the bus stop really cried. thank goodness not many ppl there..den got block nose argh.

5.30 supposed to have part dinner at seoul garden..erm..cos got ndp preview den got traffic jam..i reached home at..5.30? argh anyway took a bath den went tm liao time reached was 6.30. hmm, no one was there i thought they were eating inside liaoz..no sight of them..walked around practically whole fo tampines lar still can't find them. 9+ den i went home. asked jon online where they were..he said no part dinner . wad the....wate my time!!!!!!!!!! anyway, think its wasn't his fault also. dunno shich stupid a**hole off the phone. !@#$%^&*!@# argh. gettin a foul mood blah. wadever, i so totally enjoyed myself and i so totally need that exercise.

haix. wadever~ i'll miss the sec4s.. i'm feeling that same old feeling again..insercurity, helplessness, despair and all. haix.
-byebye-